At the end of the day
when the world is drowning
in lists undone
my mind cannot contain more
than concrete steps
and I want to be a mason
where things get done
and buildings stand up
I want to be a mathematician
where proofs make sense
I want to be a gymnast
who sticks the landing
I want to skate a routine
to a song
I want to jump
One day I will die
and no one will scour my journals
for clips of brilliance
The times everyone should have listened
will not surface
It will go unwritten
that you would not do a better job
given the circumstances
Those critics
who did not notice my work
will not care how I woke up
nightmares heart racing failure
What is done is done
What is want is want
The simpleness of every minute
does not add up
having tried is not enough